how do i be in such a life?
look im not being difficult but its how it is
you may be right
getting used to seeing you now and then has got to me
i have been missing you more and more daily

but lets face it all
i am only human
i have been loyal you can say so
i have been there for you in most cases
not that im demanding it back
i just wish you were more specific with me

i have done my bit of understanding
i have been patient with you and it paid off
im back to being me now
i have found out who i told you about
and now the person is back in me

i remember it all about the past
not to make you feel sad or not cool
i am here for you babe but why?

do you know how it feels?
to be left out and not told anything?
to be ignored in the proccess of accepting?
to be locked out by the one you call love?
to be in a place of no return for joy?
how it feels to feel rejected emotionally?

i cant ask much from you
yes you only human and make mistakes
but we can solve them
we have faced more
i have been strong but i need a shoulder to cry on
seems like you arent that shoulder as yet
you havent been able to read through my white eyes
still dont know how my voice sounds when im sad

im not demanding anything from you ey
just know who you are for you to know me
sorry to say this but its on my mind and affects my heart
a phone call would have been beter

sorry for this but then
i was deeply hurt by your decision