My mind's a maze of melancholic madness.
My soul's a sack of sentimental sadness.
It's time I shed self pity's
sombre shell,
and stepped outside my solitary cell!

The springtime songs outside my door are ringing.
The songbirds swoop,
non-stop: their sound of singing.
I dare not squelch with sorrow's baleful breath
the celebrants of life that conquers death!

I walk this world both night and day
Wanting to know what gives my stay.
Why my soul can find no true rest
Unless by your hand she is blessed.

I look as my world cry in pain
And wonder what in life we gain.
Why do we do our brother wrong
Happily singing our own song.

I cannot rest my searching heart
Till I know what’s the major part,
Till I know that calmness within
Saying that I have denounced sin.

I see you trying to lure me to you.
I see you occupying my space whenever I’m alone.
I see you jump into my head when I put it on the pillow.
I feel your presence in the room when I can’t sleep at night.
I see you promising me nothing but peace and silence.
You made me think that you were my safe haven.
You gave me a test, I took it and I failed.
You gave me another one, I took it and failed.
I see you trying to show me what a great angel I could be.
Too bad I got no strength.
Too bad I’m afraid, I’m scared.

I just cant say I'm sorry
and I don't know why?
And if I did,
I wouldn't know how
too much water under the bridge
to bring it all up now.
Caught with my foot in my mouth
I just want to shut down!
Drawing the life out of everyone,
I wear a perpetual frown.
Don't bother stopping by
or coming around
I'll only bring you sadness
of that there is no doubt.
In the very beginning,
I felt there was a way out,
but time has had it's way
of turning me due south.