TO THE BASTARD THAT CHEWS ON MY LIVER
i am sick of being sick
tired of not claiming this bastard illness.
knowing it never has left fully
just hides in shadows ready to spring
when i expect it to.
that learning comes from experience
yet i go on as if it didn’t live within me.
won’t loose claw-like chains that drag me into mud
for a while always everyday 7/365.
i rise, i fight, i throw you down to hard earth.
you rise again to hide further, trickster that you are,
lurking with hideous laughters i practice not to hear.
you will not get me you bastard son of sin
even if i have to light myself in flames
burn you out of my existence.
i despise you but respect you
you have a hand on me and inside me.
i do not hate you for i cannot.
no fruit lies there in your thorns you hand me.
me got me here and there led me where
all is a matter of going and following through
ignoring you and staying on course.
serpentining my actions daily to perplex you
reminding you that defeating you is my choice not yours.
i choose me anyday over you,
your worthless attempts to destroy me,
claiming another in big brothers’ goal to wipe us away.
RWC…
11/13/07
I do battle daily, a slightly different demon
you are not alone here. Read Purplemoondoll’s work and many others.
I adore your raw courage and defiance in this work, and it is bloody well written too! Which is a surprise because things so deep too often become shallow in verse.
My applause and prayers,
cheers,
Jess
Welcome to the site...
I noticed your comment on louis’s profile, There are a great many people here who are more than happy to help you navigate this site; everyone gets a message from louis when they join.
You have already started off on the right foot; posting your own poetry; next read others work and provide feedback; a community will grow up around you; if you need anything feel free to ask myself or any other advocates; weirdelf and Iknownobox are great.
Frost
thanks for the welcome
frost,
i have a cat name jackie frost. i like that name. my wife is a smith. as millions of others who changed or americanized once they got off the boat here.
appreciate your immediate reponse to navigation. still learning. wondering about giving feedback tho’. also wondering just how often people do post. do not want to bombard but could. have questions regarding this site and do not know whom to direct my questions to. am in process of completing manuscript for next book - due in by new year’s eve. 2 i posted will be included in next book. copyright issues you’ve hunched prob.
am reading a little everyday since joining. haven’t found you yet unless i missed. seems to be quite like a AA meeting here with all this anonymity, like poets anonymous. small matter tho’. as dealing with life or death, i can deal with anything except ignore-ance.
thanks again and my best i send,
rwc88…
The AA bit is just that we
The AA bit is just that we post personally, not for praise, sure their is some 5th step stuff here, but isn’t that true of all poetry?
The big difference is that your work will be appraised as poetry, not confession,
cheers,
Jess