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PJ
professor jinx
Member since July 22, 2020
Member for 5 years, 10 months
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Then and now and again
Then I was 18
Wandering bottle shop aisles,
Driving through a rain-soaked haze.
I carry the weight of these days
Now I am 12,
knuckles bruised, rolled up sleeves,
Begging, praying—
Knowing no one will ever look at me.
Again, I am 27,
Shaking hands with men in suits.
My own feels like paper—
Stiff and of no real use.
Then I was 35,
Staring at his face,
Wishing I wasn’t his wife.
He reads the world as scripture,
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But I am the blank page—
Unwritten, unnoticed.
Now I am 9,
A fortress of furniture against my door.
My old man sings so sweet
But his screams leave my head so sore.
Again, I am 17,
Crimson for the first time in years.
Not deep, just enough—
Enough to say: Look at me.
Enough to wonder if you’d ever hold me.
Then I was 15,
Twelve days absent.
The hospital light struck his face
With cruel indifference.
A body without a man,
A stillness I could not wake.
Now I am 20,
Stumbling and dumb,
Accepting
I will never really have anyone.
And then, when I’m 45,
I’ll gather my lies in my lap,
Fold them like a quilt of quiet years.
I’ll call you—soft, resigned—
To say goodbye,
And let the silence answer.
professor jinx’s timeline
- July 2025
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22 TueAnniversary
5 years of membership
- December 2024
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05 ThuReceived a critique
on Then and now and again from @Leslie
"After reading your poem and Geezers intelligent remarks, I think to say don't carry that weight meditate to release your anguish. It won't last forever let your higher self guide you to a better place, if only in your m…" -
04 WedReceived a critique
on Then and now and again from @Geezer
"this, I was confused at first, about the way you jumped around in age. I then realized that you were picking some of your worst memories and the way they appeared; as one might overshadow another to say, "No, i am the w…" -
03 Tue
- September 2024
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- July 2024
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23 TueReceived a critique
on Your stain from @Lavender
"Hello, Professor, It's been some time since my heart was ripped and broken, but reading this poem brought it all back. So good it actually makes me a bit uncomfortable. Your title is perfect and adds to the infliction…" -
22 Mon
- June 2022
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09 ThuFirst critique offered
on "Stich Mouth " by @zebra
- July 2021
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22 ThuAnniversary
One year of membership
- July 2020
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22 WedFirst publication
5 senses.
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22 WedJoined Neopoet
Membership begins
First poem published 1 days later.
About Me
About me
Procrastinating whether or not to process my passions.
Location: QLD, Australia
Favorite Poets
Dylan Thomas
Emily Dickinson
Slyvia Plath
Edgar Allan Poe
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Then and now and again
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Your stain
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Distant corners - fools do chime
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Maman est morte
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Mancill Drive
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Your dog
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