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PJ
professor jinx
Member since July 22, 2020
Member for 5 years, 10 months
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Then and now and again
Then I was 18
Wandering bottle shop aisles,
Driving through a rain-soaked haze.
I carry the weight of these days
Now I am 12,
knuckles bruised, rolled up sleeves,
Begging, praying—
Knowing no one will ever look at me.
Again, I am 27,
Shaking hands with men in suits.
My own feels like paper—
Stiff and of no real use.
Then I was 35,
Staring at his face,
Wishing I wasn’t his wife.
He reads the world as scripture,
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But I am the blank page—
Unwritten, unnoticed.
Now I am 9,
A fortress of furniture against my door.
My old man sings so sweet
But his screams leave my head so sore.
Again, I am 17,
Crimson for the first time in years.
Not deep, just enough—
Enough to say: Look at me.
Enough to wonder if you’d ever hold me.
Then I was 15,
Twelve days absent.
The hospital light struck his face
With cruel indifference.
A body without a man,
A stillness I could not wake.
Now I am 20,
Stumbling and dumb,
Accepting
I will never really have anyone.
And then, when I’m 45,
I’ll gather my lies in my lap,
Fold them like a quilt of quiet years.
I’ll call you—soft, resigned—
To say goodbye,
And let the silence answer.
professor jinx’s timeline
- July 2025
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22 TueAnniversary
5 years of membership
- December 2024
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05 ThuReceived a critique
on Then and now and again from @Leslie
"After reading your poem and Geezers intelligent remarks, I think to say don't carry that weight meditate to release your anguish. It won't last forever let your higher self guide you to a better place, if only in your m…" -
04 WedReceived a critique
on Then and now and again from @Geezer
"this, I was confused at first, about the way you jumped around in age. I then realized that you were picking some of your worst memories and the way they appeared; as one might overshadow another to say, "No, i am the w…" -
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- September 2024
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- July 2024
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23 TueReceived a critique
on Your stain from @Lavender
"Hello, Professor, It's been some time since my heart was ripped and broken, but reading this poem brought it all back. So good it actually makes me a bit uncomfortable. Your title is perfect and adds to the infliction…" -
23 TueReceived a critique
on Your stain from @Candlewitch
"Welcome to Neopoet! It is very nice to meet you. *hugs, Cat" -
23 TueReceived a critique
on Your stain from @Candlewitch
"I agree with Ruby's thoughts on your poem. but it was not just that you used the five senses, it is the way you did so! The poem flowed well from beginning to ending... these are my favorite lines: I heard you again, In…" -
23 TueReceived a critique
on Your stain from @Ruby Lord
"This was really good. I loved the way you used all the senses to write a strong and meaningful poem and about the physical separation of a lover. Ruby :) xx" -
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- May 2024
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24 FriReceived a critique
on Acceptance can't write your obituary from @Sen99
"Yours is a highly original poem, some great lines and images in this, keeps the reader intrigued all the way through, the meter or rhyme scheme does not matter to me, just the word choices, language and story telling ab…" -
05 SunReceived a critique
on Acceptance can't write your obituary from @Rula
"Unless this is based on a true story, I wonder how can anyone's imagination help to bring up to the reader such a descriptive and well captured piece. I have to admit that longish pieces of poetry were never my favorite…" -
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- July 2023
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- June 2022
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09 ThuFirst critique offered
on "Stich Mouth " by @zebra
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- May 2022
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- July 2021
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22 ThuAnniversary
One year of membership
- July 2020
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22 WedFirst publication
5 senses.
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22 WedJoined Neopoet
Membership begins
First poem published 1 days later.
About Me
About me
Procrastinating whether or not to process my passions.
Location: QLD, Australia
Favorite Poets
Dylan Thomas
Emily Dickinson
Slyvia Plath
Edgar Allan Poe
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