Pandemonium

Me, also going through
my own Silent Thunder.  
My head bombarded so.... 
My world turned upside down
as problems accumulate
with current events.

Wild thunder crashing,
white lightning strikes.
Thunder rolls back
again and again.

My walls from all sides
close in on me,
suffocating me
my space diminishing.

My silent screams unheard
as I try to break out
of these transparent walls.
I see everyone, they
do not see or hear me.
So invisible am I
as always.

I take a deep breath. 
Stand outside of this
transparent box that
incarcerates me.

I make list
I prioritize.
I have to be logical.
Pull myself together again.
But everyday gets in the way.

I just want to switch off.
If only my mind would
shut down.
I turn out the light;.........

I go to my secret grotto,
so do I descend, slinking
slowly into the warm green
and black waters deep

Light diminishing.
Calm, so soothing
like a lover’s embrace.
I feel the sensual ness
of the waters
caress my skin.
Like a lover lips.

So tenderly as they
explore every curve
of my naked flesh
even the most
secret places of
pleasure from
head to toe.

Waves as sweet caresses
creep up unexpectedly
catching me unaware.

They brush against
all my lips so tenderly,
full of passion ,the
taste of a sweet promise,
pure magic

I drift into the world
beyond my dreams,
of the secret realms
of inner and outer space.

Where moonlight drops stars
into the blue waters deep,
they shimmer and shine
like diamonds.

So alluring
the gentle light
of each star,
full of miracles
each waiting to
fulfill the gentle heart
it has been bequeathed.

I let the turmoil’s
of the day fall free
from me like
rain drops tenderly
cascading down
one by one
releasing the aches
and pains.

Freeing me today of
any decision making.
One by one I see each
translucent drop of
water a rainbow wish
as they go slip sliding
down over the curves
of my naked flesh on
a journey unforetold

until they fall back into
my grotto to refresh to
refill the oceans that
come and come again
without warning
without control.

I feel enlightened as
my head is released
from the turmoil now
gently drifts away.

Colors some soft and gentle
some filled with fire and ice
What a roller coaster ride full
of emotions fire, passion

Will it ever to be known to
me again to travel the
cosmos unknown
out there that
still awaits us.