Can you really decide your own fate?

I'll have to face this one alone
For I'm supposed to be a man
No more shorts, school ties and conkers
And my ma won't hold my hand
I lost some of my marbles
In more ways than one
Not just playing the game
But when they made me come undone

And I still recall that painful day
When as usual, I tried to run away
But this time I'd left it too late
So, bring on that feeling of dread
With the pain of a bike chain across my head
Whoever said you could decide your own fate?

Then someone else took something I loved
I loved with all of my heart
And after bleeding me dry
Laughed and watched me fall apart
Perhaps these grapes I taste are sour
And maybe I should live and let live
But they have stolen part of my soul
And for that I could never forgive

And I can't forget that painful day
When they took part of me away
And I will never get it back
I still get that feeling of dread
Often when all alone in bed
Now I will always live with that.