The last laugh

If only I was able to run a little fasterMaybe I could have avoided this fucking disasterShould have ran and ran and hid, could have got awayWould give me a chance to survive just another day Curled up on the floor stop punching, hurting, beating, kicking"If you don't fight back, you'll just be known to be a chicken"Don't stand a chance, the blows keep raining down and downBest for me to stay curled up, laid here on the ground Back to school again oh here we go some more abuseNo one to help me, why carry on, what is the use?Teacher's a fucking joke and does not have a fucking clueWhat goes on outside can stay outside, I think that's their viewYes I'm bitter, yes I'm bitter and I'm fucking hurtWhat is it they say? Make sure you get your punch in firstYou don't stand a chance with those odds stacked against youTake it on the chin, the ribs, the face wherever they choose It was sometime ago and people say I should move onBut it's not easy, being beaten when you've done nothing wrongAll these years and the memories are all still thereAnd having no support just makes you think that no one caresDon't you ever wonder why I'm just the way I am?Messed up, fucked up, beat up, no one really gives a damnThat's ok by me, I just keep on by keeping onI will have the last laugh and that will be for far too long.

— Millage, Oct 21, 2009

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Seren

16 years 7 months ago

Dear Millage

Great little Rant ... this has depths ... wonderful write ... and can i ask you to do something ? if ya going to say fuck say fuck, leave out the stars it gives it a little less meaning ... like its not really that important .. if you want to cuss go for it I have in poem a couple of times ... not many but a few lol anyway just an opinion get rid of those stars and I will give you one more ... star that is lmao :) love and hugs Jayne x x

Millage

16 years 7 months ago

Apologies

The f*cks have been sorted. Yes i am a cunt! ;-) does that help? ha ha ha. Much love Millage x

Millage

16 years 7 months ago

Hi

Lyn, The C-word I used in the response to Jayne was tongue in cheek as I originally edited the F-word in the poem and she suggested not to. I thank you for taking the time to read my poem. I was only venting years of pent up anger from my childhood. That's all. No attention seeking.

Seren

16 years 7 months ago

very nicely done LOL and I

very nicely done LOL and I got the tongue in cheek ;) ... hahaha you sure your not an australian ? lol that word happens to be one used here LOTS ... and I am told that they are useful lmao :) love and hugs Jayne x x x x nice morning its nearly night here ? lol

Dawdle

16 years 7 months ago

Lyn's comments are unjust

Lyn I have a feeling you have misread the meaning behind this poem, .. I feel it is about someone who has been bullied in childhood. I don’t feel that the writer is a bully, quite the opposite.. and feels angry at himself because he could not change nor stop the tide. i think it is pointless, hurtful and inflammatory to ask how many times this writer has hit a woman. you know nothing about the author and in that comment alone, you show yourself to be both narrow minded and judgmental. I read your comment and re-read it several times, and very little of it has to do with this actual poem at all. It seems to be a personal rant about someone you neither know nor have ever met. And whilst I find the use of the C word quite harsh, in some cases it is the only word that will suffice (and I believe it is here) to express pent up anger because it is such a harsh and bitter word! I would stick to reviewing poetry, because the irony here is that in your rant against bullying , you have become someone who bullies with words and that is a great shame. And before you turn on me for seeing nothing of life and not quite getting it as I have not fought for my country or done anything difficult:- it is only fair to say that I am a nurse on the advanced cancer ward, and I see enough death/ sorrow/ pain and misery to last most people a life time. But it doesn’t make me bitter, and aggressive, it makes, me love life and cherish every person I meet as cancer is the MOST indiscriminate force I have ever come across. It is it sometimes hard to read the tone in an email, this message is sent not in a harsh tone, but in a think again you have been unjust and unkind tone. Regards Dawdle