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I'm Marge (Needing Arms)

I sometimes read
words
that bring comfort
to my eyes
that stimulate my mind

Occasionally
speedy connections occur
that hold my heart in awe
albeit briefly

Such rapid sharing of selves
can be so fleeting
I'm stealing time
from a reality
of longing

I spread myself thinly
on the toast of so many
right now I'm not butter
I'm marge

I'm a fake
I'm a liar
I desire
more depth

I'm growing
I'm appreciating
the importance of physicality
Yes, I enjoy the aura of love but
I long to be
held
for my hair and not my ego
to be stroked

to communicate through looking
abandoning language
for the tongue of touch
I love you..but
I'm still lonely
Your words charm me but
I don't want words
I need arms
— faerybeki, Aug 02, 2009

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themoonman

themoonman

16 years 10 months ago

Beki...

a cyber hug to you! I'm Marge, not butter great imaging Beki Richard
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 10 months ago

Thanks Richard, wasn’t

Thanks Richard, wasn't sure if 'marge' might be a uniquely British word :) Hug warmly accepted and greatly appreciated, * faery hugs moonman back * much love Beki xxx
Eduardo Cruz

Eduardo Cruz

16 years 10 months ago

Beki,

I truly liked this in its explanation of feelings expressed through imagery. This was my favorite stanza: "Such rapid sharing of selves can be so fleeting I’m stealing time from a reality of longing" Great explanation of wanting and loneliness! thanks, Eddie
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 10 months ago

Hi Eddie, thank you for

Hi Eddie, thank you for stopping here and commenting, I'm happy you found it successful at exploring wanting and loneliness, I guess that is what I was doing :) much love Beki xx
ID

Ink Dragon

16 years 10 months ago

Beki,

wow! Intense! Makes me want to hug you and stroke your hair. Painfully familiar feelings, too. Fav lines: I spread myself thinly on the toast of so many Yours, ~Nina
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 10 months ago

Nina, happy to get that

Nina, happy to get that reaction from you hon :) Sorry these feelings are painfully familiar to you babe, but grateful that you expressed it and I feel a tad less alone ;) much love Beki xxx
Kailashana

Kailashana

16 years 10 months ago

Dearest Beki,You have

Dearest Beki, You have written my feelings this morning... Perfectly...poetically...and sadly... Thank you. ~A "You can avoid reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding reality." Ayn Rand
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 10 months ago

Darling Anna, sorry to hear

Darling Anna, sorry to hear you're feeling like this, but as I said to Nina, grateful that you expressed it, makes me feel less alone in a little way :) So...Thank You ;) much love Beki xxx
Seren

Seren

16 years 10 months ago

Beki

I am sorry I am late finding this one but I am ever so glad I did ... its beautiful hun but I have to say made me cry its so powerful in emotion ... hugzzzzzzzzzzz from down under ... beautifully sad huni ... much love and hugz Jayne x x x "We did not change as we grew older; we just became more clearly ourselves. Lynn Hall" ...
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 10 months ago

Jayne, please don’t

Jayne, please don't apologise hon, I'm amazed that you have time and energy to comment as much as you do, you're fabulous :) Sorry taken me so long to reply babe ;) and sorry ;) I made you cry! Funny how my rambling can impact others like that. Thanks for the hugs Jayne, I have been bit sad and lonely and they're greatly appreciated :) much love and hugs back Beki xxx Ps just to keep you updated hon, Omi and I are still on the hokey-cokey only now she's grown quite fond of the can-can too lol, hope it's working babe and you're feeling well? more love B xxx
A

Atticus

16 years 10 months ago

Ah Beki, you have such a way

Ah Beki, you have such a way about you that even in the portrait of shuffling feet, head down kicking rocks, dirt gazing I still feel a clever push back that comes through. But then again I may be way off base. I love this write as I often do your work. Hope I didn't make your hair too much more jealous of your ego ;) Best, Nathaniel
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 10 months ago

Hi Nathaniel, thanks for

Hi Nathaniel, thanks for stopping here and taking time to comment, I guess I'll take whatever stroking I can get ;) lol. I think you read me right (again) if by 'clever push back' you mean somehow trying to keep positive, gentle reminders to lift head from 'dirt gazing' (That is perfect btw, exactly what I've been doing really, fixed on the dirt, even bathing in it) and take in the bigger picture, a willingness to fight to keep my head up and my feet dancing. Or perhaps it is I who is way off base in my reading of your comment? Either way I'm grateful for it and for your visit, much love Beki xx
BL

Bert Lamrick

16 years 10 months ago

Beautifully poignant

Exquisitely done. Enough said. Love, ~Rick
Cloudthings

Cloudthings

16 years 10 months ago

Margie de Milo

A really embracing poem Beki, so many fantastic lines here & I love it it feels fresh.. It kind of reads like a letter & one feels like voyeur. I love the little bits of half joke, you make such effort not to take yourself too seriously, it is endearing... & I also completely understand & relate to the sentiment, but I wanted to leave that til last... I know that feeling of being spread so thin "I spread myself thinly on the toast of so many right now I’m not butter I’m marge" But I disagree, it does not make one a fake, it just waters down the effectiveness of ones being or ones effect, that of being "present" to others... we can't be there for everyone & some of us try so hard to do that & it gets watered down with guilt... I've been using creamed coconut on my toast of late (thought you might get something from that, a silly aside I know but it is laughable if you see behind it). I also love the way you carry the message, there is a beautiful underlying grace here, a sophistication you need to come look closer at I feel, too busy being hard on yourself to see that wisdom is a good place & that's where you're heading in this write. It's as it should be, choose the things that WORK in your life, once you are aware of what you need, it's good to be open & expressive about it. I want those things for you too, but I hope to encourage your heart & soul, not your ego... still, as you say, you are looking for the one who will stroke your hair & cause that lovely smile. My best to you & admiration for your ever more wonderful writing. Cheers Anni~ "Clarity of mind means clarity of passion, too; this is why a great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves". Blaise Pascal (1623 - 1662)
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 10 months ago

Anni, it warms me to find

Anni, it warms me to find this comment from you hon, Omi and I have been poorly sick and quarantined at a friend's house and I haven't been able to check Neo for what feels like ages. Thank you Anni for stopping here, you always seem to understand me so well, god, I totally get the 'watered down with guilt' thing :) Guilt has always come easy. And I have been being hard on myself, thanks for knowing that and pointing it out :) I appreciate your getting some humour here, I do try (perhaps that is what Nathaniel was alluding to too) Sophistication and grace, not terms I'm ever so comfortable with in regards to myself and my writing (it still feels like therapy lol) but wow Anni thank you for reading/seeing that here. You're a wonder, you really are hon, you encourage my everything babe and I'm grateful for your being here :) Do hope all well with you and you're getting some strength back yourself? Lots of love to you, G and all the otters! :) Must catch up with your posts hon, you miss so much here if you don't check in all the time, hey ho more to feel guilty about ;) lol. more love babe and HUGE hugs Beki xxxx
Cloudthings

Cloudthings

16 years 9 months ago

I don't write empty words, I know you know I mean it if I say it

I had saved this for a less weary moment then overlooked it, sorry dear one.. I do hope you 2 have recovered now... Funny, you & Nathaniel share that same kind of avoidance of shining when you have something to shine about, you should mirror each other a bit more, (I could think of many worse reflections to have to face!). Just wear it honey, I don't write empty words, I know you know I mean it if I say it. & it's a pleasure to read your work, I don't need thanks. I have not been posting much really, so you've not missed much, that's probably a good thing, first time in a very long time, I don't feel ok to write so much... it'll pass, all things do (ta George). Lots of love & hugs to you faery girl Cheers Anni~ "Clarity of mind means clarity of passion, too; this is why a great and clear mind loves ardently and sees distinctly what it loves". Blaise Pascal (1623 - 1662)
faerybeki

faerybeki

16 years 9 months ago

I know you mean it hon,

I know you mean it hon, I'm endeavouring to wear it more comfortably :) I do feel a kinship with Nathaniel and have no doubt he'd be almost as gorgeous a mirror as you are my darling ;) Omi and I are still off par but mostly taking it easy, lots of cuddles and tv interspersed with playing and gardening (cucumbers are looking yummy and we haven't really had that much sun!) I think sometimes it can be good to rest the pen on occasion, we write when we NEED to I guess. And often I read that way too. Much love to you Anni, hugs Beks xxx