Seren

Jun 06, 2009 ⭐ View statistics (Premium feature)

Mistress of Despair

Feeling turbidity
in a globe so remote ,
as to be a mirage
awash with guilt
armored to be despondent
courted by
sadness and her wiles

She,
it is a she
torments
every
waking
moment

I resign
to be hopeful
Aligned
to the fates
merciless
though they can be
I wish for many
hoping for all,
your being
my signal light,
the guide
my spirit follows,
reverently,
shamefully homeward,
giving a ray
a shimmer of life
igniting the wick
warming my depth
pushing her
into nothingness
until she rares
her beauteous
face once again

Radiant sadness
she brings darkness
hopelessness
lies in my mind
she pulls me in
so sweetly
silently grasping
drifting tendrils
of joy,
until,
lying in her arms
the realization and horror
seduced again
I am despairs mistress

But the living are
glimpsed
in patches
as birds darting
branch to limb
bright shining
billboards
declaring a world
living and being
in now

Words written
light infused missives
declaring,
an axis turning
my life halting
mid-step,
restarted
with a charge
of words
a vent of power
a gentle stroke of
keystrokes
typing
a new chapter
in the
book of hope ..
despair though
desirous she be
not a patch
does she hold on life

— Seren, Jun 06, 2009

About This Poem

About the Author

Region, Country: Beyond the Black Stump..Australia, AUS

Favorite Poets: Pablo Neruda, P.K.Page, W.H.Auden, to many and various to include them all ...

Critiques

Seren

17 years ago

Kelsey

(((((((((((HUGZ))))))))) Glad you liked it hun ... was a hard write this one ... Love and Light Jayne x x

bjp

17 years ago

Dear Jayne-Chloe,

You are doing as you said. This is a terrific step. Like the woman revealed. There are so many excellent words and phrases, and a seriousness that grabs and holds the eye. These are the words and lines I liked best: Feeling turbidity armored to be despondent (which has hints of amoured (not actually a word but a fictitious anglicized French meaning loved)to be despondent) I resign to be hopeful reverently shamefully homeward, hopelessness lies in my mind I am despair[']s mistress despair though desirous she be not a patch does she hold on life I like this poem. And I like the person who is grasping the keyboard with dancing fingers telling of life and life's meaning. Affectionately, Brian

Seren

17 years ago

Brian ...

Your comment meens more than you could know ... This was trying to tell a story of sorrow , mine .... In the only way I know how , have found since I started writting seriously 2 months ago ... The words are never ending at the moment so I still myself , in quiet , and try to put them into some form that represents how I feel ... Poetry written here is a light to which I look , hope not always amoung the words ... but those glimpses of light the birds dance in , from limb to branch are the poetry I read everyday , giving me inspiration and sometimes tears but always .... life :) You liked it and thats enough for this scribbler Love and regard Jayne-Chloe x x Regards to Olya and tell her I love her words , spoken through you , but still she is your ever present ...

R.M.Shanmugam

17 years ago

she pulls me in so

she pulls me in so sweetly silently that until lying in her arms the realization and horror seduced again I am despairs mistress how sweet and how tru these lines are! shan

Seren

17 years ago

Shan

Thank you for the comment and read I am so glad you liked those lines cause they represent exactly how she is , despair I meen ... Love and Light Jayne x

Seren

17 years ago

(((((Hugz))))

Thought I couldn't shed anymore tears today ...but that you like this , probably the last you will read here ... shit girl I am bawling ... I think you might know what this ones about as well ... I am going to miss you love ya my sister in Ink Jayne x x

professor

17 years ago

When things truly get to you JayC

it can bring out the best poetry. This one of yours is very good and i can imagine you writing it with the tears streaming down your face.Just a couple of things you might consider changing if you feel like editing this one. Your use of "deigned" feels very strange even though i know what you mean. I think it would be better as something like "servant" or "slave" or "chained" etc. Further down you say "she rares her beautious head" and i suspect you mean "rears" or may be just "raises" or "lifts". You are going to have to learn to use punctuation too girl lol....this is a difficult read without it! Anyway on a personal note your last lines shine through JayC and i hope that you are embracing their meaning because they are the only truth of any importance. Love Keith x

Seren

17 years ago

It seems that I am a very

It seems that I am a very emotional writer but ... that being said you know well thats me , emotional to the core lol ... I had planned to edit this one down the track and your suggestions especailly the "deigned" , I meant deigned , but i can see what you meen , maybe there is another way that could go , and you've certainly helped steer me another way .. lol at rare I felt rare writting this so maybe that was a slip of sorts lol .... will fix that in the rewrite ... Ok here is the deal I have always been hopeless at punctuation ... I will make an effort to punctuate it ... lmao if you make sure I dont make an ass out of myself in the process ... ok ? lmao love Jayne x x

faerybeki

17 years ago

Jayne, this is a very

Jayne, this is a very powerful piece of poetry, wonderful imagery and tangible emotion, i want write more but my daughter is demanding I dance with her! Better go and will weave hope and wellness for you into our dance :) much love b xx

Seren

17 years ago

Sweet Beki Hugz ..

Thanks so much for the read I appreciate the time you took , I have four children and know the pressure of bringing them up so thanks so much for the time .. more than anything , its so precious to young mums ... much love Jayne x x

Fleur MacDonald

17 years ago

You have

told me a story while I slept on a cloud!! Loved it!! :)fleur

Seren

17 years ago

Hugz Fleur

Am so glad you liked this one ... big smiles ... love and light Jayne x x