Through Watery Eyes...

It's days like these I want to crawl into a hole
and hide away where no one can see me.
I want to put my head in my lap and cry like a baby.
I miss my family,
I miss my friends...
I miss who I used to be.
Who is that girl?

I look in the mirror on a bad day.
There's a stranger looking back at me.
An empty gaze with no substance,
I don't know her...
I don't like her...
That face is not the face I used to know..
what's happening?

Days seem to drag on and on,
I just feel so alone sometimes.
My head is consumed with so much crap!
Useless emotional crap!
I stare into the darkness at night,
dreaming of the life I used to dream about.

I seem to worry about all the things I cannot change,
instead of focusing on the things I can.
I have my life in front of me,
but there's still something missing...
I don't want to spend the rest of my life
trying to figure it out.

I'm crying right now...
inside and out.
Closing my eyes, trying to snap out of it.
Take a deep breath and blow it out...
Tears continue to flow..
I just want to find my place in this world,
so I can be happy...
Is that too much to ask???

Mel Inwood