Should I end my life ?

I love my Elaineshe is the epitome of elegance, of ancient Greek beauty.This is what Helen of Troymust have looked like.Almond, aesthetically shaped eyeswith a color that dazzles.Bright, clear bluelike the nicest,clearest sea that exists in this world. But it's not her amazing beauty that dazzles me... She's also very, very cleverdynamic and driven.A true achiever in life.Just got admitted to Harvard Business Schooland is already first in her class... But It's not her beautiful mind that dazzles me either... It's her inner world that thrills me. Romantic, caring, sensitive.She offers me such strong supportcare, help and understanding.She has such a delicate soullike the petals of the most beautiful rose. We have spent eight beautiful months together.But life is not always rosy...I'm much older than her,she has a boyfriend,I'm married with a family. What does the future hold for us?Will our solid promiseof eternal love and friendship hold? I certainly feelI'm going throughthe absolutely
very best years of my lifewith my love, Elaine... Will it be all downhill after that?Will our love and friendship lasttill death does us part?Should I end my life?Should I die?
As long as the best yearsroll along?
 At any rate
whenever it comes
I will have engraved
on my final resting place
a few magnificent words
she wrote me:

"Thank you
so very much
for being real"
  These are my thoughts...