so sorry

I cant see your face

or feel my own

I try to forget what your skin feels like.

the neurotic, bubbling laughter.

my body covered in your foam

the consequences that slapped my face.

they turned you away

The false bliss you created

a sweet, scarred, and burning taste

It is how i perceive my self

Im so sorry for this.

Im sorry youve cried my eyes dry

My sick breath of life

your turn to eloquently evade

now my palms and tears are clear and blind

My body is stuck under your slavery.

i cant lift the dead weight of my heart.

to look inside your blocked  soul.

Im sorry.

i wont be there to see your heart bleed.

youve toasted my blood.

to a green beautiful fire.

my green burns the life out of you now.

im sorry.

i felt your soul through mine.

your shaking and screaming inside

my hearts leaking love

im tired.

my ears are exposed to your lies.

full of hate and profusely ringing

from the silence i face everyday.

turn me to your face, and laugh

push me down.

choke me with your fear of words

my comfortable sorrow

i want to stay

In this overflowing desire

to wollow in you tearful blood bath.

forever

including tomorrow

im sorry

for opening my beauty to you

youve tasted the burn from my skin

im sorry

for leaving your poisoned dew

this is all of myself.

getting away

face down.

crushed flat

like a terrified child

of ever loving again

my bodies slow leak

a black melt

my heart is soft and hard

my eyes a permanent wild

sorry my love.

but your scratched out

of my beauty

i will die and starve

before i let you back in to me

im sorry.

you are forgotten

a blistering carve