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asiajy
Member since January 30, 2008
Member for 18 years, 4 months
My Self Poem
The past has caused my dismal sight
Abuse has caused my violence
Ignorance has caused my impatience
I stay, though unwanted, out of spite.
Foul parasites feed upon me
Cynical snakes stalk me
Monsters coated in shadows left me an empty shell
I wish they were dead.
I am existence through sheer defiance
My mind disturbs me
My thoughts cause my restless nights
Poison tries to cloud my mind
So I collect escapes of reality
To take me away from mine
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In my dreams I float away
I'm running towards a door
Though I run as fast as I can
I implore the worshiped Sandman
Yet I never reach my destination
He never grants my request
So every night I lie awake
Instead of gaining well deserved rest
I glare up at my window
And scrutinize the waxing and waning
Of the fiend that sears my eyes
And mocks my insomnia
Growing brighter and brighter still,
Laughing at my exhaustion
And through the light there's always dark
Impenetrable, unyielding dark
It slowly envelops me
Seeming to swallow me up
Then spit me right back out
As if mortified to the taste
In the morning I awake
And drag myself from my sanctuary
To tread through the dregs of society
That hiss and snap at each step I take
And boast of their lack of knowledge
Never knowing they’re risking their lives
To dance with the Devil
Their looks are ones that long for return
In return all they get are looks
Of contempt and utter repulsion
Of those who are a waste
Of the very flesh by which they sin.
I am an intruder of their wastelands
One of which who will end the life
Of anyone who attempts to impend on my own
With one swift movement of stainless steel
I will continue my destination with no further thoughts
Of the incident that threatened hindrance.
After idle hours and thoughts of blasphemy
I return to the place I know so well
One reeking with the insane and confused
Also known as the seventh circle of hell
Selfish monsters ranting of their superiority
Easily angered and positioned to strike
So I’m remarkably agitated during the day
My only peace reveals itself at night
I remain still so as not to wake the disturbed
And glower at the snickers of the taunting moonlight.
asiajy’s timeline
- January 2023
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29 SunAnniversary
15 years of membership
- January 2018
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29 MonAnniversary
10 years of membership
- January 2013
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29 TueAnniversary
5 years of membership
- January 2009
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29 ThuAnniversary
One year of membership
- December 2008
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04 ThuReceived a critique
on My Self Poem from @Race_9togo
"after reading this several times I don't know which is right: breaking it into distinct verses would make it more rhythmical, and possibly more understandable, but the anarchist in me loves the rawness and chaotic anger…" - July 2008
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08 TueReceived a critique
on My Self Poem from @Maverick
"There are a few Grammer errors that could be cleaned up a bit, or bits and pieces that don't sound quite right until you read them a few times." -
07 MonReceived a critique
on My Self Poem from @mark
"I wonder if you wrote it as mad as I read it? It still is a great read and I'm glad I came back. Thanks again, mark" - April 2008
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08 Tue
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- March 2008
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25 Tue
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07 Fri
- February 2008
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15 FriHighest posting month
February 2008 — 6 poems
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04 MonFirst publication
Nightmare Sonnet
- January 2008
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30 WedFirst critique offered
on "A Cock and a Pussy (A Quatrain)" by @Ancientone
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29 TueJoined Neopoet
Membership begins
First poem published 6 days later.
About Me
haven't written in awhile. after my house burned down and i lost everything i had ever written in it, i kind of lost my will to write. i remembered this site and thought it may have some of my old writings on it, but then they redid the site and everything was lost again. i'm tired of grieving my art and just want to start writing again.
Location: Philadelphia, USA
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