my idea that you have written about receiving a gift of love from your parents. Perhaps getting a computer and the chance to participate in the world of the internet? I think that if you read as much as you can of what you see here, you will find that you will gradually make yourself better understood. I would appreciate more of an explanation of what you are writing about. ~ Geezer.
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From your part of the world!

I like the thought line in your poem. It carries the reader thru some complex places. I admire your command of English.

A suggestion of mine is to put those thoughts into stanzas, instead of it being one long poem. Makes it more readable, and understandable. For example:

It has been all but a rough ride
the days unpleasant sailing in this tide
never knew they could make it
always dreamt to time... fit.

Dreaming of life's luxury, not the size of the world
just according to my fold
wondering the life that passed
imagining the beauty classed.

you can go on from there, shaping thoughts into stanzas, keeping an eye on form, and the use of white space.

'Course this is just my opinion, and it my be worth exactly what you have paid for it!

Anza is welcome here, even if you brought him into the fold. Laughing….