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Internalizing

Submitted by PRECIOUSLYSET1 on Fri, 2013-08-02 19:44

I do tend to
consume myself
within myself
It seems to come naturally
no need for help

Why do I have this talent
to own my reality?
Am I really
lost in my insanity?

Clarity seems vague and distant
like I'm lost at sea
fog
Withholding my resistance
Futile thoughts of undone chores
pilin up along the shores

Can I survive this battle set against me?
Is it so bad this life I'm in
really?
Sensibly
I answer,
NO!
For my life is wanted and finaly secure

Answers do not come for
why I am me
Only
more questions as to
why that may be

Silently,
I defiantly rage
against all that is against
my sanity including
ME !

Concluding thoughts invade my
memories
Excluding all who fought
taking my energy

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Ian.T

Sat, 2013-08-03 04:12

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Well at least you have someone you can trust to talk to and believe in.
Loved the write, are you sure you aren't part of Gollum in lord of the rings?
Great talk there I hope you won. the last few words seem vague:-
Excluding all who fought
taking my energy.
Otherwise a very good write fresh and gets in there,
Yours Ian.T

I am old fashioned and the use of shortened words from local accents seem not to work for me.. Could be a typo ???
"pilin" up along the shores

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There are a million reasons to believe in yourself,
So find more reasons to believe in others..

PRECIOUSLYSET1

Sat, 2013-08-03 06:25

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I wrote this 1 yr ago tomorrow!
I just realized that when I went back
everything no matter if only
a word
or a book is dated, time started and
where I was when written

The good catch is the last lines
" Excluding all who fought
taking my energy. "
was just added when I
published here
but still coincides with
subject ..
I stand as one, united in
a temporary truce with myself
and all of the "CRAEZIES" that reside within ...
I live with what is now known as
Dissociative Personality Disorder
and this poem is to be taken literally

Alone we shall find our ways into worlds of never imagined discoveries

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Ian.T

Sat, 2013-08-03 09:27

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My reference to "Gollum from Lord of the Rings" What do I say, I should have taken more care in my summary of what I thought of your work..
But who you were, and what you were suffering came through.
Now what do I say, after this I can't go along the lines of sorry, it doesn't equate with reality.
I am here at any time to listen to your ways, I have plenty of helpers, some here and many on the Spirit side, and I am familiar with DPD but it is one of those things we rarely meet,
I hope to remain on this journey with you, for a while yet and it is lovely to have you with us, Yours Ian.T

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There are a million reasons to believe in yourself,
So find more reasons to believe in others..

PRECIOUSLYSET1

Sun, 2013-08-04 15:23

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I learned a long time ago
to embrace them
Fighting them and not acknowledging
their existence only leads to near catastrophic
collisions of personalities that normally
doesn't go well together
If given consideration and equal amounts of
"out" time
{ time to be in "control" }
they only rarely make a big scene or "act up"

I actually depend upon, mees crazies, as I like to call them
and wouldn't want it any other way .. it is constant work in
self betterment
its worth it so don't feel as tho you spoke on a sensitive subject
it is, but not for me, for others without the "disorder"

Alone we shall find our ways into worlds of never imagined discoveries

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